There are a lot of things that have changed throughout my young adult life, but if there's one thing that's stayed the same it's my love/need for Modest Mouse.
I went through a lot in the past few years mostly centered around the diagnosing of clinical depression when I was younger and a large amount of medication changes at 15. I lived far away from my parents starting at fourteen and soon fell of the edge overwhelmed by my reasonless sadness. I had a strong urge to travel. To stop lying in bed all day hollow from the anorexia but filled to the brim with dull ache that radiated through my body and made it impossible for me to do anything. After listening to World at Large and Talking Shit About a Pretty Sunset a million times over, I decided to make the change. Within a week I had boxed up all my things. I dropped out of my school in my sophomore year of High School. I finished the winter and went into the spring in the south of France. I traveled around europe and I met people and explored. There is a certain feeling of limitlessness that comes with listening to Modest Mouse. The moment the world seems to pause and you get lost in a song. Modest Mouse brought that to my world. And it made that real. Last summer when I let a boy into my life (as girls often do) he ruined everything (just as boys often do). Things got hard and complicated. We got scared and I got hurt. And instead of running to the Taylor Swift albums as most 17 year olds might, I had my playlist of 80 Modest Mouse song. Somethings I look back and wonder where I'd be if I didnt have this music. I know this all sounds so cliche and silly. But to have a song as bizarre as 3rd Planet describe your life so flawlessly must be something. I dont know if anyone will read this. Or understand how this band has changed me and my life. But I can assure you that the next time Modest Mouse is in Chicago, I'll be in the front row.